Except Ithaca, for the reason I mentioned. I'm just going to use the monologue videos from the other day that I don't like as much. Sigh. Also, Shenandoah.
BUT HAPPINESS! I feel like I can almost sort of breathe now that I've submitted to Indiana, Baldwin Wallace and Texas State.
WHEW. I'M READY TO BE REJECTED NOW.
Real talk: I'm not going to pass all my prescreens. If I pass half, I'll be like, ok, cool, I must be really talented after all. It's largely (no pun intended) a type thing. To start, I look absolutely horrible in my monologues and intros--partially due to bad lighting and not having brushed my hair that day, but honestly, I'm never going to be a good looking or thin person, which for an actor, well, sucks. But facts are facts and I think my personality might be weird enough to match my type. NOT of course that I would blame all rejection on what I look like! There are so many reasons not to pass a prescreen. This is just one applies to me more than other people. And I'm not being "down on myself," I'm being realistic. I am not marketable looking. I do not have my weight listed on my resume for obvious reasons (though I've actually been told it's better not to, regardless). I am not even really insecure about these things. If you saw my headshot, which I will put on here somewhere, you would be like "what?! You're not ugly!" And it's not that my headshot doesn't LOOK like me, it's just....a really really good angle. Whereas my monologue prescreens are the opposite extreme. To put things in perspective, there is not a single double chinless moment.
But you know what? There's nothing I can do about that (EXCEPT BRUSH MY GODDAMN HAIR IT'S TOO LATE FOR THAT). I'm just going to roll with it and hope some school thinks I'm interesting enough to be see in person. If none does, their loss.
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