2/21 Ithaca Interview

Last weekend my mom, Layla and I headed up to Ithaca for my interview for theatre arts management. We drove the 6 hours there on Friday and stayed with family friends. Wow, there is so much upstate New York! Saturday morning started with a check-in and info session at 8. It was freezing cold. The first thing the woman leading the info session (department chair) said was, "if the only thing stopping you from going here is the price, email me and I'll get you more financial aid." It is a really intimate program, which is cool. There are only 6-8 theatre arts management majors aka TAMs per class, and then acting/MT performance BFAs, BA theatre studies and BFA design and production (nice to be at a school where they understand production is different from producing, haha). About half the people were auditioning for acting and MT, and the other half was mostly theatre studies with 4 potential TAMs and 1 design/production person. Honestly, I thought everyone would be MT, so I was really surprised! The performance people left to warm up and the theatre studies people started interviewing first, so it was just the 5 of us plus families. They brought in a panel of current students who were all great. I was the second TAM to interview. They brought me downstairs to an office where there were 2 women (I had no idea who to look at because one sat across from me and one was next to me) who asked me questions. They were really interesting! They asked me about my experience, what I do in my free time apart from theatre, why theatre arts management, etc. They were both super nice and loved hearing about Africa :). I was kind of nervous about showing my portfolio because I don't have a ton of experience, but I was allowed to explain what each thing was. And um they seemed to think I did have a ton of experience! Which was awesome! And they kind of accepted me on the spot! I can't remember the exact wording used but it was something like "there is no reason why you would not get accepted" and "you seem like a really good fit for this program"...and yeah. Yay! But it also got me thinking about what it would be like to be around actors and not be one and now I'm really confused about what I want. Double yay!!!! My decision is going to actually be kind of a big deal!
After the interview, I got a tour with two of the current TAMs, who were awesome. But I was kind of in shock from having been accepted and in the throes of existential doubt so I maybe didn't take as many mental notes as I could have. Especially because my mom will not be driving me back there for accepted students day. Ah well. It's going to come down to money anyway!
The rest of our time in Ithaca was great. We went to the Moosewood restaurant that night, and the next morning we went to Cornell (where my grandparents met) and saw the chapel where they got married. Cornell is incredible. It's like its own city. I don't regret not applying there, because they don't have a good theatre department, but damn. That might have been worth 2 subject tests and $80.
So that was my Ithaca weekend! I can't believe I only have one more whirlwind trip like this. I'm kind of sad!

Update 2/12

Today I got an e-mail from the head of Production & Design at BU. He said that the woman who auditioned me thought it might be a better fit or that I had the skills for it or something. I am fairly certain that when I interviewed at BU I talked about being interested in producing and casting--and it's totally possible she thought I meant production and casting, as in making masks. HAHA. It was still kind of very sad because of course I had to e-mail back and be like "lol no that actually is a terrible fit."
I also sent an e-mail to the woman who auditioned me, thanking her for not only remembering me but caring enough to try and get me to come to her school in any program (it is flattering!) and gushing about the wonderful experience I had at BU...and also respectfully declining the invitation. Sigh. I was like "I'd still love to be considered for performance!" but let's be real, if she thought I would do better in Design & Production which I have negative experience with, I don't really stand a chance.
Oh well. This is hopefully going to take away some of the pain of rejection. It's totally my fault for being inarticulate in the interview. And not emphasizing that acting comes first for me. I get so caught up in trying to be individual in my interests that I forget I'm still one of the aspiring actors who only feels alive onstage and all that crap. It just so happens that I have other things that make me unique, and I wave them in the faces of auditors so they will remember me (although UArts and Cornish liked them!). That's the truth. And it's sad because I've discounted my love for acting, which comes first and always has. I can do other things besides act, but I can't not act. You know? It's always been weird for me to write that, first because I was ashamed for normal reasons and now because it's too cliche. This is ridiculous. Thank God I got into performance programs already! At least I know I won't have to stop.
Remember my stomach thing from Emerson and Unifieds? Yeah, it didn't go away. I finally went to the doctor and she gave me some meds but I still feel weird. Apparently I will feel better within the week. I better! I'm so behind in school from missing for auditions and sickness, and I'm less motivated than I've ever been. Now that I actually know I'm going, I can't WAIT for college.
I also got this weird letter from UArts today, reminding me that there are still academics at the school and an honors college if I'm interested. Honestly, that's the last thing I feel like being a part of right now. I'm so done with academics. I thought I had senioritis when I was a freshman...geez. Freshman me knew nothing of true slackerdom.

What You've Been Looking For

See what I did there? Can't not be Sharpay.
I've started to see a lot of my junior friends thinking about what they want in a college (and summer program: more on that later!). So I thought I would share the list of questions to ask yourself about what you want that I was given when I first started out looking.
As someone who has only recently discovered what I like in a theatre school, I just want to say that everything changes even as you go through the process. Some things confirmed what I always knew, and others shifted, and one or two even rotated 180 degrees. Also, I would definitely say that if you have any special interests at all, really, take that into account. At first I thought I was willing to give up management for acting but came to realize I could do both. Not only does it eliminate a lot of programs, schools love to hear that you're not solely interested in performing. At least, the ones I auditioned for did!
Anyway, here it is!
Ask yourself if you want a school...

• close to or far from your home
• in a city, small town, or rural area
• where you will spend all your time with other theatre students
• where you can pursue another passion, such as sports or visual art
• where you can have the "traditional college experience" with football and keggers and stuff
• with Greek life
• where you can unwind in nature (this is kind of like the city question)
• where you have the freedom to create or participate in student run projects
• in an area with urban nightlife
• where you can have a city's cultural opportunities: museums, shows, shopping, etc.
• with a certain type of culture (either in the school or department--ask current students about this!)
• where certain dietary needs can be met (i.e., Kosher or Halal, vegetarian, allergies)
• where you will be supported academically
• where you will be challenged academically (this was a big one for me!)
• what sort of program style you want: conservatory (2 or 4 year, usually 80+% studio classes), conservatory style (usually 1/3 to 3/4 studio classes), or liberal arts (1/2 or less studio classes)

AND ASK YOURSELF WHAT YOU CAN AFFORD. And then apply wherever you want because who knows what scholarships and aid you can get. But keep in mind that it really sucks to get in and not be able to go because of money. Or have to take on incredible amounts of debt because it's really hard to have a job and audition/be in a BFA program. Also, this can be super tough for parents. My family lies right in that awkward middle-class-own-4-cars-but-have-nothing-saved-but-make-well-above-the-average-US-income pocket so I know how it is. Or will soon.

When you're looking for a program, here is what you should ask (of yourself for what you want, and of the school for what is provided):

• How many acting classes are there over the 4 years?
• Will we dance every semester/year/day?
• Will we take voice every semester?
• Can I choose my voice teacher? (as the child of musician parents who send kids to music school, this one is more important than you might think)
• Is the voice faculty from the music department? (Most are. My voice teacher has told me about students of his that struggle with the 100% classical training. Pretty frustrating for us belters!)
• Are BAs cast in the main stage shows?
• Can freshman perform?
• What sort of tech requirements are there?
• Do you offer classes in playwriting, directing, or another specific theatrical interest? 
• What is the Shakespeare training like? 
• Is there a cut or review system? (In a cut program, more freshmen are accepted than the school can graduate, so at the end of a year they cut back to a specific number. These are going extinct. In a review program, you have juries at the end of every semester/year where the faculty determines whether you have been progressing. If not, you're put on probation and eventually asked to leave. Beware of juries as well! A girl I know said they really stressed her out her first couple of years even though she never had a problem passing.)
• Are there opportunities to be involved in show choir, student productions, a cappella, dance ensembles, etc.?
• How does the program/faculty feel about students taking leaves of absence to be in professional productions?
• Does the school encourage and/or facilitate auditions for summer stock, etc.?
• Are there classes in the business of the business? 
• Are internships available/required?
• What sort of industry connections does the school have? (Showcase, workshops, etc.)
• Is study abroad available/required?

These sorts of questions will be important all through the admissions process. You can certainly save some of them for info sessions and auditions! Good luck (is break a leg applicable here?) determining what you want in a college!

Update 2/5: Another Acceptance What Is Life

Holy crap. Remember how I had the greatest audition ever for Cornish and I want the auditor to adopt me? Just got in there. I submitted my application literally yesterday. Holy crap. The email was from a real guy who I had talked to about auditioning before Unifieds, which was funny because I was just thinking about how much I would like feedback from people who were in the room. He was like "nice play" which was chill because no one except my mom (and you all when I make this public, RIGHT?? PSA click the link on the sidebar) has ever read it. I am tempted to post it but since it's personal that might be weird. They said a letter with an "initial scholarship offer" is coming in the mail.
IS THIS REAL?!?!? I am the girl who has never had a lead in a musical, who passed 1 of 7 MT prescreens, who still can't mix. The process could not have thrown me a bigger curve ball. Really. I'm dying. Help. I am actually leaving here next year. I don't have to prepare for the worst anymore. I'm so happy. I don't deserve this, but also I really really deserve this. Wow. I am going to have to make an actual DECISION one of these days. That's terrifying. How did I become one of those kids with multiple acceptances?!?!?!?

Update 2/3

I was feeling sick again today and barely made it through AP English. I came home and was watching Jane the Virgin with Layla (my little sister in case you didn't know) on the couch when about 15 minutes ago, my dad walked in and threw these 3 giant packages on the couch. It was very jarring. I was like, ugh, must you? I'm feeling sick! I wasn't going to open them but Layla handed me the packages. They were all from colleges. First I noticed that SCAD sent me an entire BOOK. There was also a medium sized but thick envelope from IU and a huge one from UArts. I logically opened the UArts one first because it was most likely to contain a decision (I already got into IU and haven't applied to SCAD) and I was confused because it was so BIG. But I ripped it open and inside was this big folder...and in the folder was an ACCEPTANCE. For musical theatre. Also a $16000 academic scholarship.
I got up, went into my mom's studio where she was practicing, and said "here. This just came and I think it's a mistake." And I shoved it in front of her face.
In retrospect, I'm pretty sure it's real.
I mean, I had a good audition although I though it was weird that they didn't ask me to dance. And the faculty was brilliant and basically I am so, so thrilled. I didn't think my first acceptance would come this early. I didn't think my first acceptance would come. You remember that UArts was the only prescreen I passed, after all.
I recently made a vow to myself that I wouldn't talk to any more students or do any more research until I was accepted somewhere. So. I'm off to find some current students to talk to.
Oh. And all of my advice is officially valid now so you can start taking this blog way more seriously now. ABBY OUT.
*drops mic*
*picks up mic*
*sings Everything's Coming Up Roses*

Edit: I also got into the IU Honors College!

A Giant Rant

OKAY. All this MT-competition-College-Confidential-is-my-kid-good-enough-top-tier-what-are-the-odds-talent-pool BULLSHIT is starting to piss me off.
Here's the thing: yes, colleges want "talent," although I think the better word is "skill." But we're artists, okay? There's no definitive way to RANK artists. STANISLAVSKI, GUYS. "There is no good or bad or right or wrong; there is only what is true." My acting teacher at Circle said that like 6 times a day. Hasn't everyone been told this by their acting teacher? I just don't understand what else people think theatre is for. We all get so caught up in the numbers and the competition that it becomes a game of getting in or having the best audition and we forget why we even started. The whole point of theatre is moving people and being unique and brave and individual. Why else would it exist? Because the freaking ancient Greeks loved Glee when they were in middle school?
There is no way they are ranking people from most to least talented and taking the top 24 or 50 or 8 or whatever. I refuse to believe that, because it doesn't make sense! They're not! Because there is no definitive number of "best" people. We're all talented. There's no way anyone auditioning is not a little bit talented--er, skilled. I just don't think there's a way to rank people, except in terms of that technical skill and whether they tell the story honestly, like Stanislavski said. Everyone also forgets that there's more to a college audition than your actual performance. My mom has been on a lot of audition panels and even for music, so, so much of it is the interview. They ask you to pull up that chair because they want to KNOW you so they can figure out whether it's going to be a good match. They literally say it! And people still freak about the one crack on the last note and how that means they're never getting in. I've had some relatively meh auditions, but the interview was so spectacular that I counted it as one of my "good ones."
And of course, there's a randomness to the whole thing. In the BU info session, the woman said she sees 850 auditioners and thinks 250 would do well in the program (and since we all have some technical skill I swear to God those 250 are the honest ones, I know this because that same woman looked at my resume and told me she had also trained with my teacher who quoted Stanislavski) but can only accept 90. Even if you're what they want, they might have too much of what they want. That's why you can't feel bad when you're rejected. UNLESS you didn't show your real self.
So what are colleges looking for? I don't know, people they can see and TEACH every single day for four years and not want to MURDER? Maybe??? People who don't waste time trying to figure out what the people behind the table want and are solid enough in themselves that they can actually express shit and be a person and relate to other people? People who are unique???! Actual people like human beings??!!!??? MAYBE.
Or maybe, they are looking for the people who are most technically skilled, the most commercial, the ones who'll book the most the fastest. Clearly, some are. Some are. I acknowledge that. But if that's what "top" colleges want, then how incredibly stupid. I don't want to go to one. I didn't audition for the ones with those reputations. I want nothing to do with it because I got into this as an ARTIST, dammit, and I will stay an artist if it's the last thing I do.
Unless I become a producer. Oops.
I have to believe there are musical theatre programs out there that are doing more than plugging their students into this Broadway formula for maximum revenue. There must be some that are looking for people they get along with, can play with, can teach. It's literally so easy to be one of those people. You just have to stop freaking out about whether the mysterious faculty members behind the table think you're "talented" enough to get in.

BU Audition 1/31

As I mentioned, I changed my audition for Boston University kind of at the last minute. My mom and I drove to Manchester NH in a snowstorm on Friday night and stayed in a hotel there. The next morning we went into Boston (parked and took the tee). It was really easy. We left a bunch of extra time, and I arrived an hour early for my 11:00 audition. A lot of people did though, and the info session started early, while I was in the bathroom! They took our headshots and resumes before the info session. It was just one woman running the whole thing because her colleague was sick.
The info session started out kind of slow and then...BAM. I fell in love. I already knew the program was cool but MAN. It was amazing. You can pick acting or theatre arts, and within theatre arts you can concentrate in whatever, but everyone's together the first year. And it's totally possible (but hard) to do a major or minor. BU is honestly incredible. I was thisclose to overlooking it and I am so glad I didn't. They have a musical theatre concentration, but when I asked about it the woman was VERY clear that BU students are actors first and she graduated from a BFA MT program and essentially said everything I feel and believe. And an internship is required for theatre arts, and study abroad is required for both. And the entire junior year is Shakespeare in the acting program. And as a senior thesis, theatre arts majors form a theatre company together. It's glorious. Agh.
Anyway, after I had fallen in love, we all went upstairs and they posted a list of who was going in which hour. I wasn't until 2:00 so Mom and I walked to get lunch in the FREEZING COLD. I was so cold I couldn't even function when we got back. I felt kind of sick as well. But I forced myself to go hang out with the current students and I am SO glad I did! It made me feel way better, and they were all great. We talked about actual THEATRE in addition to the school/program/audition process. I was one of the last (because of switching my audition date so late, I'm sure!) and the woman from the info session was evaluating me. I did my monologues--it actually might have been the most connected I've been to them since NYU (thanks Utah guy!)--and then I sat down to talk to her. She was like "so you went to Circle in the Square" and I was like yeah and she was like "so did I!" and I was so excited I practically knocked the table over. She asked why BU and I talked about the freedom thing and how I'm interested in management and wrote a play and that it was so great not to have to decide. And I asked a couple more questions about the program. She verbally asked where else I was auditioning, and I told her the whoooole list (minus walk-ins, so not that long) and from her reaction, I got "oh, the usual suspects." You know? It wasn't that weird except when I was trying to remember them all. Not as bad as I was expecting. We chatted about Circle and stuff some more and then she was like "nice work" and I left. And on the way out I asked about the senior thesis thing. It was really casual. And I was like "thanks I had a blast!"
UGH EVERY TIME I AUDITION FOR A SCHOOL I FALL IN LOVE WITH IT HELP

The Do Sing List

When you are thinking of auditioning for musical theatre schools, you obviously need excellent material that shows you off. A lot of people will direct you to "do not" lists, but that feels so negative. Plus, what you really need is to know what material you CAN do! In this post I will offer some tips about how to find songs for college auditions.

HOW TO PICK SONGS FOR COLLEGE AUDITIONS:

When I started to look for songs, I was so positive that the perfect ones were out there. And they were. I'm very confident in the songs I settled on. They're not well-known, which I think is excellent because it shows you are willing to put in the work. More on that later!

Here are some resources that helped me in my quest to find the perfect songs:
1.) My voice teacher. I ended up singing a ballad he gave me two years ago! My teacher happens to have an insane collection and knowledge of MT rep. But I didn't solely depend on him because I want to know the rep myself. Doing this kind of research will pay off in a million ways, I swear. Obviously, voice teachers can help you find songs that show you off vocally.
2.) YouTube. A lot of people say not to use YouTube to find songs but it's just so useful. A lot of times when I discover a great song, I'm inspired by a video of a performance. Just don't get sucked in and try to emulate it. Specifically, look at:
-If It Only Even Runs a Minute
-senior showcases! I found my favorite monologue by watching the senior showcase of a school I was interested in. I didn't perform it for them, though. [Edit: I now attend said school :)]
-FamousInNY has a lot of videos up from benefits and stuff. Super useful.
Once you've found a song or show that interests you, you can listen to the soundtrack for free, which brings me to...
3.) Spotify! I love spotify. I hate the mobile one because you can only listen if you shuffle. But yeah. Spotify has whole albums of surprisingly obscure shows. Just not contemporary ones (for that, go to the composer's web site or newmusicaltheatre.com). But for Golden Age material that isn't overdone, this is your place. Also if you find a song you like on YouTube, you can listen to the full album and find more songs the character (or another one) sings.
4.) auditioningforcollege.com has a list of all the age-appropriate material in the rep books. Similarly, contemporarymusicaltheatre.com has a ton of blog posts on audition songs, including some great ideas.
5.) A specific college audition coach. (I did not technically have one but the song interpretation teacher at Circle also is one and she gave me excellent song options, one of which I worked on with her and sang for my auditions.) Coaches will save you so much work because they know what is going to look good on you or someone of your type AND have a huge MT knowledge base. I have audition friends who have had success with MTCA--I took their dance classes and they are soo nice. You can probably find a local person (or multiple people) that you already know who will work with you for a lot less money if that is a concern. Or you can do what I did and go to a summer program where they specifically work on audition rep. Just make sure you brush it up before you start actually auditioning.

Here are some criteria you should look for in your college audition songs:
1.) You have to love and connect to it. This is arguably the most important thing.  These people want to know who you are so they can see if they want to spend every day with you for the next 4 years. So what you perform has to be representative of you as a human. Everything you bring in the room-your shoes, your headshot, maybe even your speakers-needs to scream your name. But especially your actual material. When you finish, they need to feel like they have had a glimpse into your life. Psychologically. Emotionally. Keeping this in mind, you maybe want to use a very personal acting technique for this. Like, relate it to something in your life. I know that a lot of people are anti-"method" (and this isn't actually the method, and I've been trained by a student of Strasberg, and it's actually all about keeping healthy and sane, but that's a discussion for another post), but it's the best way to be honest, I think.
2.) It's just got to be age-appropriate. Roughly. I mean, the character doesn't have to be exactly 17 or whatever. But it should probably be a character between the ages of 14 and 24, depending on what you feel you can play and relate to. I play old ladies ALL THE TIME, and I love it. But for college auditions I felt like showing myself
3.) Make sure your songs fit your type. Some people say type is limiting and a thing of the past but as a relatively specific-looking person, there are a lot roles I can't play. I'm not a vixen because I don't have the body, and if I came in with Big Spender it would be weird. You want these songs to be roles you could be cast in NOW, TODAY-this goes back to the age thing. So, because we're trying to focus on what we should look for rather than avoid, you have to figure out your type. Unfortunately, there's no advanced search where you can eliminate all ingenue results.
4.) A lot of schools will have a pre-1960 or Golden Age requirement. I avoided the pre-1960 thing (although I had a song in my back pocket) and sang a piece from 1964. Totally still in a classic MT style though, and that is what really matters.
5.) Similarly, some schools ask for one contemporary piece. Be careful with these because it doesn't have to be from the last 5 years (see what I did there? I am going to rant about L5Y in a bit). A lot of very recent stuff is overdone, like Bring It On and Dogfight. Also, some contemporary MT composers write songs that stylistically don't lend themselves to auditions because they tell long stories or have crazy accompaniments. So check out more obscure musicals from the 1980s and 90s. Just make sure they've been produced.
6.) You have to be able to sing it. Vocally. That's why I switched my ballad after my first audition. You most likely will not have time or a place to warm up. If you do, it's going to be for 15 minutes and possibly in a crowded room with a lot of other people around. I had all morning auditions, except for Unifieds. And you might get a cold. 

SONGS YOU SHOULD PROBABLY NOT SING FOR YOUR COLLEGE AUDITIONS:

I say probably because people say "if you can sing Don't Rain On My Parade better than Streisand, go for it!!!!" I am of a different opinion. First of all, the auditors are going to think of Barbra. And that particular song requires a sort of accent, which is a no for college auditions. And also, there is SO MUCH great MT rep out there. Singing something very overdone shows no originality, even if you do have a deep spiritual connection to it and sing it well and act the shit out of it and fit the type. Seriously, you want to pick material they didn't know they missed. They give you brownie points, or at least keep you in the room a few seconds longer to compliment you on your choice. Any extra time in that room and any little extra (positive) thing for them to remember you by is precious! And I guarantee you there is something else out there that shows you off better than Don't Rain On My Parade.
I'm not going to make a list of what not to sing specifically. There are tons of lists out there that I can connect you to. Most of the material on there is obvious anyway. This post is about what TO do.

EDIT: Keep in mind that this is just my opinion! I'm rereading this a semester into college, and now I don't think any of these rules should be hard and fast (except the one about accents or playing a character canonically of a different race--i.e., please don't sing from The Color Purple if you're white). People get in with Jason Robert Brown songs. People get in with Pulled. People get in with pop songs. People get in with Les Mis. I personally think one could rock an unexpected Disney song (the Disney song in my rep book is actually Jafar's reprise of Prince Ali!).
It's been almost a year since I wrote the top of this and I'm honestly kind of re-evaluating some of what I said. But my point remains the same: the reason to choose your college audition songs needs to be that they're representations of you. Each song is an artistic choice. Choose originality, because you are original. Originality might a song so obscure that the experts behind the table don't even know it, and it doesn't mean an unconventional choice. It might mean putting a new spin on a classic musical standard. But it always means being yourself. Think it through, but in the end, CHOOSE YOURSELF! You have to choose yourself before anyone else can choose you. :)

UNIFIEDS Day 2!

This morning started with an interview for DePaul's theatre management program. After yesterday I was nervous about feeling sick/nervous. Nervous about feeling nervous. That's me.
I was also late because we weren't sure if the 1 train was running normally downtown (it was) so we took a cab to 96th. And got bagels. Anyway, after SPRINTING from Penn Station, I got there just in time and went right in the room. The guy interviewing me was the dean and his name is also Dean. I only made 9 jokes about Community. Then he talked to me about my interests and where I see myself in 10 years and what one musical I would produce (I said Mean Girls or Monsters Inc) and dream casts. I basically geeked out for half an hour about Cortney Wolfson as Cady and Jared Gertner as Damien and Molly Hager as Janis (you cannot deny that she would slay). It's a very cool program and it's quite easy to get a job right when you graduate. From what he said, it seemed like the interview is more of a formality. Which is good because I would love to go to DePaul!
After the interview, I went to Pearl and cancelled my Penn State audition. I'm glad I did. It was way too much, and it's not the right type of school for me. I could tell by the way the people standing outside the door were dressed. There are just different types of MT kids. I never would get in there anyway.
I came back at 3 for UArts. I was really nervous because I was supposed to do a choreographed dance in the room and I didn't know mine as well as I could have. But I talked myself off the ledge and went in there. My monologues went OK but I honestly could have been more connected. I was at times but I'm still thinking a lot about how I sound. Then I went to do my songs and realized that my speakers were missing a battery! I was like "I'll get it" but they said to sing a cappella. And they were like, do you need a starting note? I said no, I have perfect pitch, and I sang my pieces probably way better than I would have had I been accompanied. It was the best technical singing of my ballad so far, I think. Then they called me over for an interview and we talked about how they're all about creativity and doing your own work and it's so cool. Ugh. They did ask me why UArts and why musical theatre. I asked about Shakespeare training and they were like "we treat all work as new work" and I was like AWESOME. And we talked about my parents being musicians. Then at the end of the interview I was like "do you want me to dance or?" And they were like "oh yeah, please, dance!" And I was like "but my speakers? Should I get the battery that fell out?" And they were like, "just dance with no music! Actually, don't worry about it" so I said "I can just do a split or something" and they said "hahaha yeah do that." So I sat in a split for a few seconds and left. And that was it for Unifieds! I almost did a walk-in after for UWSP but they weren't really in the room or they were eating lunch or something so I just went home because I knew we had to leave the city. It was a great, great time. I wish I could do more. I really do love auditioning, I mean it. The end.

Unifieds Day 1 Part 3: My Audition Horror Story

After my audition for Webster, I went out to lunch with my mom. We got to the smaller Pearl Studios building (this was my only audition there) way early and sat outside the University of Utah room. I was already tired, I think. The girl working the table told me about how much music is in the acting program, and I decided to audition for that and not MT. I looked over the audition requirements and it said 2 contemporary monologues and a song, a cappella. So I was like, cool, that's what I've been doing all day, I'll just go in and get this done. They let me go in way early because they had a break. So I went to sit down by the table and tell the acting guy what pieces I was doing, and he was like, "so your classical piece?" I didn't even say that the paper they handed me had specifically said 2 contemporary monologues. I was just like, ummmmmm Beatrice from Much Ado! Which I had done for an audition (for my summer program) a year before and not touched since. I knew I wasn't going to remember all of it, and it's like a 45-second monologue. But alas. I tried in vain to go over it in my head as they were interviewing me--I think they asked what sort of acting training I had done, but I wasn't all there. Then I got up to do my monologues, and I started to feel really sick. Like, nauseous. I weirdly put my hands on my hips because I felt so bad, and I tried to gather myself together in between pieces, taking a way long time to hopefully make myself feel better. It did not make me feel better. I had no time to get in the moment and I basically said my contemporary monologue. As for the classical, it was a bit better actingwise, but I left out the middle third. HaHAHAHAHA. Then I did my song and I was like, "I'm really sorry but I'm feeling really sick" and they said "like you're going to throw up?" and I said "maybe???" and they were like "yeah go and come back if you feel better" so I left and kind of collapsed in the hall for a few minutes and had some Tums and then I went back in the room, still fighting it, while they were like "sit down." And they talked to me more about what I had just done (which was pretty terrible because I was too busy not vomiting to act). I got up to leave and said "well thanks for putting up with me not feeling well!" and they were like "no we're not done with you we're doing corrections." So we talked about my objective and tactics and stuff, and he kept going "breathe!" and made me say the last like like 20 times. I would have been totally into it if I hadn't felt SO SICK and knew what I had done was not at all representative of me as an actor. The guy was like, I'm glad you got sick because you were actually honest at that moment. It was definitely a wake-up call about my monologue getting stale, and doing too many auditions in one day. And having a classical monologue ready just in case....
So, I will not be applying to University of Utah. I wish I hadn't gotten sick but I'm glad that I did it because the guy gave me some good tips. It's really, really hard not to be on autopilot after a while, and as an actor you cannot be. I definitely learned, but it was still a horror story on quite a few levels.
Oh, and I did let the alum who was proctoring know that the monologue requirements on the sheet were wrong! Haha!

Headshots!

I made this post a way way long time ago, but I accidentally posted it to pages. So here it is.

I got my headshots done February of junior year, supposedly in time for my audition for Circle. Not. I ended up having to audition way earlier than originally anticipated, so I didn't get to use any of these. I'm still so glad I got it out of the way early though! If I was still waiting for the edited ones to come back now, I'd be going insane. [EDIT: It was like October.]

I used a local photographer who has specific training in headshot photography and happens to be my dance teacher's husband! Ah, Vermont. So many connections. Anyway, since I got them done locally it was relatively inexpensive. I really loved the original pictures, but as you can see, they are all horizontal: 10 x 8 and not 8 x 10. And in most of them, my face is moved to one side. This is okay with me now but it freaked me out at first! I'm pretty sure it's a trend, so make sure you check with your photographer about how they will edit the final photos.

Here are my 6 favorite headshots:

(As you can see, my eyebrows are horrendously weird.)

 This is the one I have on the back of my resume. I chose it because it contrasts the one in the front (I'm not smiling, and I'm wearing a different shirt).

 I really like this one and it is my Instagram profile picture but I just look so washed out!

 This is my Jewish looking headshot.

 This is my main one that I actually use.

I love this one. I don't know why I don't use it. Geez.
For college auditions, most people won't expect a perfect 8x10 professional headshot. But if you want to get that out of the way for later, go for it. I think it is very wise not to take the photo yourself, however. Most people have a friend with a nice camera. get them to take it in good lighting in front of a blank wall, and then crop it to 8x10. I also used one of my headshots as a senior picture, so it was worth it to do a photo shoot for both. As headshots go, mine were VERY inexpensive. I was lucky to know a guy who had been trained in it and who charged me under $200 an hour. I could have gone to someone fancy in Boston or New York, but as far as college, I think a local thing is best unless you plan on working professionally in the near future.

Before you get your headshots done, practice expressions (especially serious expressions!!) in the mirror. Have someone else do your hair and face--it doesn't have to be a professional, just a friend who owns a lot of fancy make-up and hair products and knows how to use them! Wear a solid color that doesn't clash with your background and looks good with your skin. As you can tell, I love green. I also had some pictures in a purple top but the green one came out best. I changed maybe 5 times during the entire shoot, which is kind of a lot. I brought like 40 other tops with me though! You can never have too many options.

My photographer told me that you should have two headshots: a commercial and a theatrical. The commercial headshot should have a very friendly, smiley, inviting look. I use the second to last one as mine, even though I'm completely uninterested in commercials. The last picture above is my theatrical headshot because it's a little more dramatic and intense. A good thing to do is put your theatrical headshot on the top of your resume, next to your name. I will make another post on resumes at some point! Until then, go forth and look beautiful in your headshots!! (I still don't know if that is one or two words. If you have any clue, please tell me.)