Another Opening, Another Show (Or Not)

Shows were the only acting training I had for so long. I was never in tons--usually two or three a year--but they ruled my life anyway. After my freshman year (when I was in way more shows than usual!) I decided there were other things that needed my attention more. First, I started dancing more. I finally restarted ballet (which has helped me so much) and tap. I also took two acting classes, got a job, and started going to whatever workshops I could. I still participated in my school show, but I also realized I didn't have to depend on other people to cast me in roles that would benefit me.

In addition to outside training, I put on my own cabaret performance as a fund raiser for my Africa trip. It was tough being a director/producer but I am so glad I did it! In addition to raising money, my friends and I got a chance to perform.

I would never advise anyone to give up shows, but if you want to continue doing MT in college, think about what each one is going to offer you. You do not owe it to anyone to be in shows! Of course, shows are fun. But if the only benefit is social time, think again. I personally went for shows where there were people I would learn from. That meant not being a lead most of the time, but that was okay as long as I was learning. It's so okay not to be a lead all the time. Just think carefully about what you are choosing to do with your time. :)

This year I'm not doing ANY shows (at least, not right now). I miss it, but I just can't stretch myself that thin right now. AP English is a full time job as it is. I was not going to be the lead in my high school musical, which is fine. I'm actually glad I wasn't the star of my high school/area, because I don't have unrealistic ideas about my talent level (part of that comes from seeing shows and doing research though). Admittedly, hearing "every kid auditioning for college MT programs had the lead in their high school musical!" is not a huge confidence boost, but you know what? There is nothing I could have done about any of those shows. I could come up with excuses like directorial bias and illness and typecasting and "there's just a lot of talent in my school", but what is the point? I wasn't right or good enough or whatever, and that's okay. It's okay not to get every part, it's okay not to get ANY part, it's okay not to spend your time trying. The important thing is improvement. Go forth and improve, friends.